Two families

A long time ago, I thought I could just love him and think nothing else. Now, as we grow older, I realize things aren't that simple. It's hard to have two people with two entirely different backgrounds together. For example, duckie's parents, are people with extreme traditional thoughts, who never cared anyone else but their own family. They might act nice to people, but everything is just the outside beauty. If you only see them more carefully, they might be a lot different than you think they are.

My parents, on the other hand, aren't that good either. They give me almost no freedom. I don't know if that just shows that they love me, and being very protective, but still, I really don't like this feeling of feeling "trapped". They are really traditional too, but they are people who always stay at home, being helpful, nice, and don't go out to visit other people much. In a way, they are really quiet and not outgoing. To be honest, my parents are vsery witty, but really innoncent, in many ways. They don't go gamble, drink, or even play MahJong with other families, like some families do. I remember, from what my grandma had told me, that I should never play any gambling. Even if you can control yourself, learning such thing isn't that good.

Now I think back, we come from two totally different families. I live in a family which all the family members are quiet, conservative people. In the other hand, duckie's family, is included with people who go out at night all the time, like duckie's siblings, parents don't really care about their son, and sometimes, they even go out at really early times and don't come back till like 12am or 1am. I don't think that's normal.

I always wonder.....can we stay like this even if we are so different? I really don't like people who always go out at night, go out to BBT, and play Mahjong.

So tired...

I always want someone to talk to...but I guess this little blog is my only friend. ^^

I am here again....

Here I am, talking to my little blog friend.

I just told duckie not to go out to get me a present for my birthday. I hope he understands that I am just doing it for his own good. Who will not someone to celebrate on his/her birthday? Since I have been with him, I always want him to celebrate with me, but sometimes, we have to need to care about the whole situation. Happiness is important, but work is also very important. I hope he can use that time to do some work. I don't want him to stress out too much. I will hate to see if he is rushing to work super hard and try to save time to buy me a present.

Maybe...when love is strong, you will want to care about him instead of your own self.

I wish he is happy, and recover soon.

I am alone again, but hopefully, writing things down in here will give me some comfort.

Last night

Last night, duckie suddenly left me all alone. I don't know what had happened to me. He told me that he would come back really quickly, after he ate something quick, but he never came back. He went offline too, all at the sudden. I waited for like half an hour more, but still no replies. I sent him 2 sms', still no replies from him. I was getting a bit disappointed, so I went offline and went to sleep instead.

Till now, I still have no idea where he had gone to. I came online since like 10am; after an hour of waiting, he is still not here.

Where did he go? come on...this is getting me worried.

Work day

Duckie told me he had to work hard because he got assignments to do, and a midterm later on. Well, I will support him. And, hopefully, I can fight this lonliness. lol. I am feeling ok right now, yet very tired. I am about to go to sleep, but I have to wait for him so I can say good night.

I was gonna do more assignments, but I am just too tired to do so anymore. Furthermore, I need to read the chapters in the coursebook before I can really do it, which will take a me a lot more time.

I will wake up a bit earlier to do that assignment, I guess, so I can work on my project later on of the day and go back to study for my midterm next week.

I find it quite cool to have no one replying me here. I am like talking to myself here, and I don't have to worry about how other people will reply to my words.

Quite odd though, since last December or so, I didn't get comments in my MSN Space anymore. Maybe my supporters are gone, or maybe they just don't want to reply me. lol...oh well...that's ok. I purely write to keep myself updated, and not because I want to have feedbacks from people. As long as I know there are some people in the world who support me, I think it's really good already.

WEEEEEE!

woooohoooo

I finally finished the assignment...weeeee!

It literally took me so long to finish the task. Oh well, it's finally done..

I will do some check-ups on it later.

My decision

Yesterday, duckie and I were talking about our relationship problem again. He said what he wanted to say, then let me decide if I still want to be with him. This decision took me a while...

First of all, I know that..if I stay with him, I might not see him that much (especially after he told me he got a job from some work study thingie). Secondly, his parents don't like me at all (maybe hate me too), which will give me so much pressure and struggles to go with him. Thirdly, it seems like we had a lot of arguments recently. I know we were not intended to do that, but still....arguments are arguments....

However, at the end, I had decided to stay with him. The reasons are, that I really love him, and I believe he will love me and stay with me forever. He said I don't believe him, but I just think he is wrong. I do believe him, but I don't want to keep saying the same thing again and again anymore, just to tell him that I do believe him.

Anyway, I will accept him, wait for him, love him, support him. It might take a while to get ourselves back, but I will be patient. As JK Rowling had said one time, "Patience is the key".