Because of a man

I’ve lost my way
I’ve lost count of how many times
I’ve faltered before love
Every time I act like this,
I’ll probably find another person and rest on them
But this time, I don’t want to do that
I can’t live like this any longer

-__-!!

다 아는데 난 아닌데
그래도 놓치기 싫은데

Feeling ok

I might look like I am feeling ok, but I am not....

Like A Child

Another song that I love recently.

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김동률 - 아이처럼
Kim Dong-Ryul - Like A Child

사랑한다 말하고 날 받아줄때엔
After telling you love me When you accept me
더이상 나는 바랄게 없다고 자신있게 말해놓고
I say to myself confidently that I have nothing else I need
자라나는 욕심에 무안해지지만
Although I feel worried With my growing greed
또 하루종일 그대의 생각에 난 맘 졸여요
Thinking about you all day and night

샘이 많아서 (아이처럼)
I have alot of tears (like a child)
겁이 많아서 (바보처럼)
I have alot of fears (like a fool)
이렇게 나의 곁에서 우는게 믿어지지가 않아서
I can't believe that right now you are near smiling at me
너무 좋아서 너무 벅차서
I am so happy that it's overwhelming to me
눈을 뜨면 다 사라질까봐
I fear that when i open my eyes Everything will disappear
잠 못들어요
I can't fall asleep

주고 싶은데 (내 모든걸)
I want to give you (everything)
받고 싶은데 (그대 맘을)
I want to feel (your heart)
남들처럼 할 수 있는건 다 함께 나누고 싶은데
Like others I want to share everything with you
맘이 급해서 속이 좁아서
I feel anxious I became envy
괜시리 모두 망치게 될까봐
Like everything will disappeared
불안해하죠
I feel worried

웃게 해줘서 (아이처럼)
Laugh in front of me (like a child)
울게 해줘서 (바보처럼)
Cry in my hug (like a fool)
이런 설렘을 평생에 또 한번 느낄 수 있게 해줘서
Let me feel the love again in my life
믿게 해줘서 힘이 되줘서
Please believe me Give me strength
눈을 뜨면 처음으로 하는 말 참 고마워요
When I open my eyes The first word I want to say is
참 고마워요
Thank you so much

내게 와줘서 꿈꾸게 해줘서
You are here by my side Like a dream
우리라는 선물을 준 그대
Its you who give “US” as a present
나 사랑해요
I love you

Change of my desire

Talking to different people from different cultural backgrounds makes me think that the area I am living right now is so small. I wish I can get out of Vancouver and explore!

My goal right now is to finish my remaining semesters, then do co-op outside Vancouver (if I have a chance),. If not...Vancouver is fine too.

After I graduate from SFU, I will see if I can apply for a job outside Canada. My preferred places are going to be France, Germany, Japan, and Korea. Not only do I want to get more experience, I wish I can learn more about their cultures (and the language), and of course know more people!

The only concerns I have are that I will be alone when I get to a new country, and I will miss my family and my friends a lot.

I told my parents about this. My mom didn't seem to disagree with what I am thinking. Maybe she finally realizes that I am growing up. I know she used to argue that I couldn't take care of myself last year. There is finally a change. ^__^

As for my education (master or GDBA program), I am still going to do it. However, I really want to know what I really like first. If I really end up getting a job outside Canada, I will wait till I get back to Canada before I do my GDBA. I want to spend more time learning the new culture.

I didn't do what I had promised

I was gonna update this site, but I have too many things to do, so I guess I will try to write something here tomorrow.

I am going to sleep now....

Love

He who knows nothing, loves nothing. He who can do nothing understands nothing. He who understands nothing is worthless. But he who understands also loves, notices, sees... The more knowledge is inherent in a thing, the greater the love... Anyone who imagines that all fruits ripen at the same time as the strawberries knows nothing about grapes.

- Paracelsus