Toronto

I finally spent a day in Toronto.  Comparing to Waterloo, I think Toronto is heaven.  I love busier cities, with more people, and more things to buy!!  Downtown Kitchener is nothing if I compare it with Downtown Toronto.  Shopping there is sooo fun!!

I will post some random pictures I took in Facebook later.

And yes...I need to work tomorrow again.  I hope I can fix the technical problem that I had for days...

Mom + hunny

I phoned my mom last night.  It was a horrible talk.  It was ok at first, but my mom started to talk about honey and told me that he does not deserve to be my lover.  Back in Vancouver, I had tried to persuaded her to try accepting him, and believing me, but I know it didn't work out.  Every time we had a conversation, she would bring it up and made our conversation very unpleasant.  At the end, one of us would end the call.

Honey was sick yesterday...well...he is still sick, according to him.  I am worried about him, but when he said he couldn't talk to me anymore, my emotion wasn't very controllable.  I started to say he was leaving me alone again.  I know it wasn't true, but I am still very hurt and painful that I am now alone.

I love him, and I will love him more when he comes back.

Getting a car

I had been talking to my brother for a few days about getting a car. Since he is more knowledgeable than me in cars, I think it's a very good idea to get some suggestions from him.

After thinking about it, I think I will decide if I buy a car or not when I get a permanent job. I want to know where I will live in the long run. If I choose to stay in Ontario, I will to transfer my driving licence to the Ontario one. I might want to warm up my driving again in Vancouver if I can stay there for a while, then take another driving test to upgrade my licence to class 5, then transfer my licence to a G Ontario licence. After all these are done, then I can get a car!! If I cannot stay in Vancouver, then I will transfer my licence to G2 (maybe)n then take a driving test to upgrade my licence to G. Either way, I think it will work. I hope I can get a job soon. That will really help me make my decision.

So sleepy

I am so sleepy...
I couldn't sleep again last night.
Not the same problem as last time...
I don't have much energy to talk now...
I will write more about this later.

Update on 7:43pm:
This time it's about my honey. I missed him so much, and I couldn't wait for him anymore so I sent him a sms. He replied to me with email, and told me that he was just busy. In my mind, I thought he was forgetting me, so I didn't accept that reason. Personally, I will never leave my lover like that, so I couldn't understand his action.

Anyway, because of the sadness I got from last night, I couldn't sleep at all. I kept thinking....what should I do? Should I leave him? I love him so much...and that was the only reason why I didn't want to break up. However, logically, if I knew that he was forgetting me, no matter how much I love him, I should break up.

One thing that touched my heart is that he could finally talk to me this morning. I was so happy, but I couldn't show too much as it was actually my work hour when he phoned me. I love him so much. Hearing his voice strengthens me to continue waiting for him. It gives me the energy and motivation to continue taking care of myself. It might be such a little thing for some people, but to me, it's really the best thing he can give me.

I tried to phone him after work, but he didn't answer my call. Oh well~

Anyway, I will write later. I can write this much right now because I am actually using my laptop. In my other entries, I had been using my BlackBerry. If there are any typos, I am very sorry. I don't usually spend too much time checking my grammar and spelling if I am writing with my phone.

Last night

I couldn't sleep last night.
Not because I wasn't tired, but because of something my friend from Vancouver said to me last night.

In August, I met him. At first, we didn't talk a lot, but we started to use sms to communicate a while later. It's not because I didn't want to talk to him on the phone, but because he found using sms more sweet (don't ask me why). Umm...ok...so we used sms everyday, till one day I told him that I had to go to Waterloo for work. We didn't talk a lot afterwards. He had a new roommate, and from that day, we didn't talk much again. I sent him a sms on the day of my flight to Waterloo. He didn't reply me; I thought he was mad at me, but he told me last night that his grandma passed away, and that's why he was away from Canada.

Ok...that really surprised me.

We didn't talk for a few months. I remember he told me he saw me at Columbia with another man. He was jealous. He insulted me that day...

Aah...so I forgot about him when I arrived Waterloo.

A few days ago, he contacted me again. He told me to return Vancouver, and that he missed me so much. I thought he was joking, so I said, sure. Then yesterday, he proposed to me. He said he would wait for me to Vancouver, and he was going to say he wanted to be my boy when I returned. He shocked me...really...he said he realized I am so important when I am gone.

I am thankful for how he feels, but I don't know how to reject him. I don't want to lose a friend.

Lack of communication

It had been a few days since honey last sent me an email.  I don't know if he is busy or ignoring me, but I don't feel too happy about it.
I tried to make myself happy...by not thinking about it...but that's really all I could do.

Going crazy

I am starting to run out of things to say....
I don't think anyone really cares anyway....
Ha....let's write a function in here instead...I think anyone can understand...

Static void printCrazyStatement() {

       boolean crazy = true;

       while (crazy) {
              System.out.println("I am starting to go crazy....");
       }

}

Have a good day~