I wanna cry...
I said I would not sleep to wait for him to finish the work.
And what did I at the end? He finished the work, and argued with me, then he said he was going to go before me.
What the heck?
He doesn't love me. Why am I here for him?
Totally heartbreaking. I have no one to talk to now...I am so lonely. Why does he have to do that to me?
He really wants to leave me? Maybe...I don't know. I don't know how long will I stay up tonight...but certainly, I don't want to lie down to think about this problem.
I will not cry, and stay strong instead. I can do it...I can do it...at least...hopefully...
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amadeus,
Please don't worry about me. I know you are doing this for my own good. You want me to concentrate on my studies, so I can have a successful future, and I will be happy and independent. I know you love me, and I am glad you are always with me.
However, please don't worry about me. I am fine. I just want to complain a little bit because I don't think life is really fair. I don't think duckie is a bad person. He told me today that he left me all at the sudden because he wanted me to go to sleep, and I kept on saying that I would wait for him.
Maybe this is a misunderstanding between duckie and me, or maybe we do have some problems.
However...I do believe things will work out. Don't worry about me, amadeus. I know things will eventually work out.
take care,
kittyangel
amadeus,
hehee...I am so glad I have such a nice brother to care about me. I know I am not a bad sister, because I don't talk to you much in MSN, but I hope you don't mind that you have such a bad sister. I care about you too.
Thanks for your quote you sent me yesterday. I still think Duckie treats me ok (not the best, but at least it's something I can accept), so I guess that's ok for me. You don't think he respects me enough?
I hope I can have a good future. I will concentrate, so don't worry about it.
take care,
kittyangel
amadeus,
I realized you left me a message in MSN in the morning. i am sorry that I never got a chance to reply you.
I am glad we have here and e-mail for communciation too. It keeps us together, even though we don't get to see each other.
I certainly don't know if my love's duty is to make me happy. Maybe...but I think he tried his best already. There are times when he gets really upset with things too, and I am not there to support him, and make him happy. In many ways, I know it's not just his fault. I think understanding between each other is more important than just making each other happy. I know there are times when there is something more important to deal with....and the other person should be able to understand.
Don't worry, amadeus. I will get more rest, and keep myself healthy. hehee...
I had been sneezing a lot these days. It's not because of cold, but allergy..hahaa
Anyway, talk to you later.
take care,
kittyangel
"Have a Happy Sunny Day"...remember?!
~*Dun Worry, Be Happy*~
Remember the sun is always up there...shining on...(/melting)..us...hahaha...
CHEER UP!!! ^3^
amadeus,
heehe...I am glad to know that you feel happy reading my response. I always think it's my fault for not replying your e-mails or your messages in here right away. I know you are being very supportive, but this also tells me that I am not trying my best to be your great sister.
I understand what you mean for my love between duckie and me. I forgive him already, and we are working hard to solve out all the problems. It's true that we do face problems especially when we feel really stressed about our school issues. University life is a lot harder than our high school live from 2 years ago. I do miss those times a lot, but then, I know I have to look forward.
I don't have work today, since today is an extra holiday for Canada Day. The day passed by really quickly, and the day was really hot, but enjoyable. Hope to hear from you soon, amadeus.
take care,
kittyangel
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kinki,
I know I know what you mean la, kinki jie jie. heheee
I am fine again lu...hahahaa
I know, kinki! The sun is like MELTING us, literally!
hahaha.....sun gets my skin darker as well. XD
hahahaa
see you soon,
kittyangel
amadeus,
hehee..It's always nice to see you writing a new message everyday in my blog. It just makes me happy to read comments from you.
I love this communication style!
For duckie's and my relationship, we are working hard on it. We listen to each other, and try to understand each other. We will ask about how each other is feeling. I believe that understanding each other will prevent a lot of little arguments, which will eventually lead to a break-up.
take care,
kittyangel
amadeus,
I just got a small chat with you in MSN today. hehee...that was nice, even though it was a bit short.
hehee...yeah, that's what i meant. Sorry for confusing you. hehee...
That was cute? :S....where did that come from? hahaha
kittyangel
amadeus,
haahaha, I know I know. hahaha....I always make errors like those. hahaa....I am just stupid, and careless. hahahaa
see you soon,
kittyangel
amadeus,
I really don't know, but I really have the habit to downgrade myself. hahaa...I don't know why. I know it will get my confidence down, but I still have to do it.
See you soon in MSN,
kittyangel
amadeus,
You are like that as well? That's not so good. I think we should change to make ourselves better. It's good that we have a lot of things in common, but common in something we shouldn't do, is not that good.
Hope I can change myself..haha
kittyangel
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