Duckie left me last night

Duckie left me last night, and he doesn't want to come back to me anymore.
Sigh...

I will support him mentally...from really far away.
I will support him, without...telling him how much I love him.

*cries*

I am so lonely these days. When I am feeling especially frustrated and sad, duckie will not be by my side. He always says he supports me, but from how he acts, he never does. All he cares is his works, and nothing else. He might cares about his family, but since I am not part of his family, he just never really cares about me. He only wants to see me when he has time, which makes me extremely sad.

These days, I had been always working. The only thing I really wish from him is that he can see me. However, he didn't choose to do that. He doesn't even talk to me, sigh.....

He isn't really my boyfriend, I guess.
Since he doesn't act like one.

hehe...suprise for today

I didn't write anything for a while again. I was soo busy that I didn't even eat properly everyday, and I got my mom mad for quite a few times.

Anyway, today in LING, the prof realized she screwed up the last question from the midterm (the FSA question, which I got it wrong). Well, as the result, from a test that was out of 32, she made it out of 31. woohoo...and now I get a few percent higher. hahaa

And today, I came to Surrey earlier (I am currently in Surrey anyway). I guess I have more time to do my work. haahaa

I want more M&M

Suddenly, I really want to eat M&M. I ate a lot these days already...haahaa...In the last few days, I thought too much, so I need more sugar in my body =P *making an excuse*

I will never giveup

lol..I will never giveup...
I will sleep now..haaha

soo tired.

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He is tired already

Duckie is tired with me; he is tired of me saying leaving him already.
He is tired of loving me; he is tired of trying to get me back already.

Maybe he doesn't love me anymore.
I can tell how tired he is from his words in MSN.
I can tell that he doesn't want to do anything to save our relationship anymore, because he knows that he had done all he could.

I know he is tired to continue this. I know he is tired...

He said he is not sensitive anymore, but to me, everything he said is always sensitive, till one day, my love to him dies.

If this is the case, does that mean he loves me less already?

Probably....he had lied to me once, he can lie again. Maybe he loves me less, just that he doesn't know how to tell me.

I wish he loves me as much as before. He knows that, even if he says "I love you forever" 10 thousands times, I will not believe him.

He said I always hurt from because I always want to leave him, but does he know how much he always hurts me? Probably yes, but he doesn't know what to do.

I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe...I will leave this alone, and let it be natural.

Went out to eat with family

I woke up at 10:15am today, then went out to eat with my family. I was gonna tell duckie last night about this, but he left me without waiting for me for 10 seconds or so. I didn't tell him, then I left to eat.

I went to this casino restaurant to eat. Of course, my family would not even try to go to the casino part of the while building; however, since we heard that the food there is quite cheap, we decided to try things out there.



Anyway, after we ate, we went back home without doing any shopping.

When I got out of the car, we noticed something really interesting. Someone was spy on us.



haahaa...it was really really funny.

By the way, I found out that there were some scratches on my digital camera. It hurted me quite a lot, but oh well...as long as it works, it doesn't really matter right?