This blog is supposed to be for my little duckie, but I started to mess this blog around with my personal issues. Well, it's not because duckie isn't important to me anymore. Just that, sometimes, I feel too frustrated in my other issues that I just complained whenever I have a chance.
My relationship with duckie had been going too horrible. I had been yelling at him everyday and kept telling that that we will be breaking up. However, I know I love him more than anyone I know in my life. And, I know, I will love him forever.
And today, I think I finally think things through. I decide to stay with him, and love him. I will try my best to understand him, and will never say anything about breaking up again. I want to fix up our relationship, and perhaps, we can be really really happy, like how we had been before (a long time ago).
In the past, I had been thinking that duckie doesn't like me that much. It seemed to me that he had been always selfish, and only thought about him first. I know, however, that he loves me (at least that's what I think he is).
Now, I will try to change. My temper hadn't been good at all, it led me to change my personality a lot. I said a lot of non-sense things, and asked duckie to do something that I know he couldn't do it. My purpose was to make him struggled with me, and perhaps leave me alone.
Duckie, I am sorry for everything I caused. I will love you more, and perhaps a lot more than before. Please take care of yourself. I know one day, we will be happy again, and maybe, a lot more happy than before.
I love you forever
P.S. I had enabled the comment section in this blog. There is a chance that I will close down my forum. If you have anything to say, maybe it's better if you reply in here instead.
5 comments:
amadeus,
I do hope I am feeling matured enough to love someone. I will not be selfish like I used to (only care about him being with all the time)
I know education is very important. I will not forget what you say to me everyday. I will remind myself.
I love you too, my dear brother. I will keep you in my heart, and I will not forget what you say to me everyday (education first...and remember to concentrate).
Happy Easter, amadeus.
Thank you for including me in your prayers. Take care of yourself while I am busy with my work.
I will try to smile...even when I am not feeling too well these days.
I don't know about the forum. I might have to, because I had realized that the admin of my host is thinking about shutting down.
*smile*
take care
amadeus,
too bad I can't see you, since we have a big difference between us.
however, i know we can always feel each other, in heart, perhaps.
i had been trying to smile more lately. i do feel happier, even though i am feeling quite sick at the moment.
i guess it's because the admin of my forum doesn't want to continue paying for our hosting anymore. so...i guess, we need to bear with the lack of communication tools we have. if you wanna, you are always welcomed to talk in here.
you are right amadeus.
we can chat in e-mail too, just like what we are doing right now.
we can meet in person...sometime. haahaa
you are in my thought too. i bet you must be havinig a nice dream.
i am smiling more. thanks for keeping me happy. thanks for your support.
hehee...I do want to hug you. the support you gave me for the whole year made me extremely happy. i am lucky to have you as my wonderful brother.
hehee....take care, amadeus. i think you are the first one to say i have a cute face. i do wish my boyfriend says that to me as well...but oh well.
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