I am so scared

I am so afraid that I will lose oppa forever. He never replied my e-mails... I know he doesn't send me e-mails unless he has to, but still....I still wish I can get some sorts of replies from him.

I wonder if he wants to ignore me forever, or is he just too busy with his own life. He promised me that he will take care of me forever.... but why is he ignoring me? =(

I am so scared...I am so worried. I feel so weak right now. My body doesn't feel right at the moment, and he is not here. =( I don't know what I should do...