My happiest time of the year

My happiest time of the year is always in December, especially near the end of December. When I was little, I would get a lot of Christmas gift, then a few days later, I would receiver a lot of new year greetings from friends, relatives and family members. I could also enjoy the holiday (that means...a lot less homework!).

Too bad...I don't really get a lot of gifts anymore, but I still have a lot of friends; I don't have a lot of greetings from relatives anymore, but I do receive a lot more greetings from friends. I guess....I didn't lose a lot of things...isn't it?

Friends, thank you very much. Without you, I can't feel the happiness that I am getting right now. In here, I wish each and everyone of you a happy new year.

And Duckie, I love you forever. <3

P.S. I don't feel really well these few days, so I don't really know what exactly I am talking about....hahaha...if you don't get what I am saying, I am really sorry. Please forgive me. -_-!

Merry Christmas!

Hi friends,

I am just here to say Merry Christmas to all of you. May your new year (2007) be a lot happier and happier!

What's your new plan for the new year? Any ideas?

Sign in problem for this blog

Just a note...for anyone who has problems signing in to this blog, I believe you need to use your Google account to sign in. This blog I am using right now is now merged with my Google account, and not a separate account just for Blogger anymore. I know...this is sometimes really frustrating, but Google is trying to evolve Blogger into a better and more efficient blogging system. I am not too sure how everything should be working, but if you really want to comment with your Blogger account, try to upgrade your account to your Google account first, otherwise, just comment as a guest and put your name in the name field. Thanks

Long time no updates

hi everyone. I am now back again!

well...lets me get you guys some updates of what happened to me in the past few weeks.

First of all, I had been addicted to Apple products....and so....I had been talking about it day and night to my boyfriend, and amadeus.

I had been real busy at school. I had projects, assignments, quizzes, midterms, etc.... I didn't even have time to rest. I used to work every Monday and Thursday, and because of my busy schedule, I stopped going for work in the past 2 weeks.

Last week, I was really busy finishing up all the projects, assignments, and quizzes, and I had been studying really hard for the finals. And today, I finished all the finals, and I am here again... I hope I did ok with my finals. Wish me luck ^^

AND...

Guess what? I got myself a MacBook! Finally! HHHAHAAHAA
I am so excited. I ordered it from apple.ca, actually...because I got this student discount, and I used it to buy this Mac.

So far...I am not too used to it, but I know I will have a lot of fun with it. ^^

That's for now...I will update more later on when I have more rest. My hands are too tired right now...don't really want to type. =P

MacBook got upgraded!

MacBook was getting me so excited this week. I believe it was Monday....I was on a Mac on Monday, as usual...in the library...and I was a bit bored during the break, so I went to apple.ca...and guess what I saw? I saw my beloved machine got upgraded =) hahahaa....I was soo excited! I phoned Duckie immediately, but he didn't answer my call. oh well.....I am a bit used to it now...not that I like it or not, but whatever...

Anyway, I am still waiting for Leopard. I am so determined to get it now. I even started thinking about what I want for my MacBook. hahaha

I love everything about this new MacBook. I hope I can get it soon!

Busy days

I am really sorry for having no updates at all. I had been extremely busy, and if you are sending me any e-mails, please give me some time to send you back a reply. If that message is extremely important, please message me in MSN/WLM instead (you can even phone me, if you want to). Otherwise, it might take up to 5 days before I can actually send you back a message.

I am really sorry about this...but I really have no choice...

Everyone, please take care. I will come back to blogging when I am a bit more free again, which might take about 2 weeks or so.

Kiss to Kinki

Kinki,

This is a KISS for you! =P You said where is the kiss...HERE YOU GO! =P
I hope you like it!

The most recent Duckie picture

Like I had mentioned before, I will post the next Duckie picture I had drawn on my computer. I didn't draw the kitty picture, but I had added a duckie beside kitty to make my picture meaningful. Anyway....see if you like this one or not. *wink*

Newest look

I finally released my blog's newest look. I had modified my old CSS file to this look. If you see anything that looks wrong, please leave me a message in here. Thanks!

Do you think this appearance looks better than the old one? I want some honest opinions. Thanks!

Duckie, get well soon!

Duckie, I know you must be suffering at home. Not only did you miss school, you lost a chance to see me as well. I don't know if you will read this or not, but I really hope you will get well soon. You sometimes think I don't care about you, because I always tell you to stay with me; however, do you know how much I worry about you when you are not here? I wish you are stronger, so you can take care of me. heheehe

I always think about you. I will love you all the time, and forever, we will stay together.

Get well soon!

Love

Things are always easy to say, but hard to do.

Elmo TMX 10th anniversary edition

Did you guys ever see this adorable Elmo doll from Sesame Street? It just got out on September 19, 2006, and everything got sold out in the first 3 hours. I only knew about this after my brother told me about it one day, when the value of this Elmo TMX raised to almost 400 dollars US. Then immediately, my brother phoned my dad to see if he could order one from Toys R Us. Well...of course, as we had already respected, my dad couldn't get one, but on Saturday, there was a re-stock in the store, and so...we bought 3 of them.

I just want to show you this excitement. hahahaa....even though...this toy was meant to be made for some pre-school kids. I think.....

iPod Nano ad

A while ago, iPod Nano had a new look, and iPod got upgraded as well. I saw this ad, and I just want to share it with you guys.

It looks like...colors create your dreams...hahaha

link: http://kittyangel.spymac.com/iPod.mov

Mario Hoops 3-on-3

I am not that happy today, mainly because of Duckie. I know it's not his fault, but I just can't control myself. I am feeling happier ready, since I just wrote all my feelings down to another blog, which I don't think I will show it to anybody. (sorry guys...if you want to see it, feel free to google it...if only you know how to search in google)


Anyway, lets back to some happier topics. Since last week, I had been trying out this game called "Mario Hoops 3-on-3". I think it's really fun, and it is implemented quite well with the use of the touch screen on the DS Lite (or org. DS). Actually, this game got me a bit addicted to the DS Lite. I had been learning how get my left and right hands to cooperate and work together. hahahaa....you know, when you are controlling how the characters move, you can kinda lose controls with your right hand, which is used to control the dribbling, and shooting... Well, I am getting a bit better now. hahaha... You know? It's really fun. If you can get this game and a DS, that will be great.

That's my comment on this game..hahaha....lots and lots of fun...and it supports multiplayer too...hahaha...but too bad it doesn't support wi-fi...lol

DS Lite

I didn't blog for so long again. I know I am a bad blogger now. hahahaha.... I am trying hard to keep my blog as updated as possible, but it doesn't seem to be working well. Please forgive me. ><

During the last few weeks, I had been preparing for getting my DS Lite. Just last week, I got my DS Lite and got it flashed so I can play homebrew games. I bought myself a Mario Kart game too. I think it's the best game I had played so far. If you had never tried it out, I think you should try it out too. hahaha

The DS Lite I got is in polar white color (That's what Nintendo calls this color), and I heard that there are two more colors coming in North America (Onyx and Coral Pink). I really can't wait to see it. I guess I really gotta wait till Septeber 13rd, 2006.

Fieldtrip with my mom

Last Wednesday, I went to Queen Elizabeth Park and Chinatown with my mom.

I don't know what to say on this topic, but I can tell you that this is sure a fun day. Although it's not a family day (because my dad had to go work, and my brother wasn't interested in looking at flowers), I had a lot of fun taking pictures. I love photography. hehehe

The two pictures I had joined together with a few smaller regular sized photos.

Flowerbeds and gardens in Queen Elizabeth Park in Vancouver.

Chinatown

And...I want to say (not related to this blog entry topic), I love you, Duckie gor gor. XD

Went to Science World with Duckie

I was soo happy yesterday. Duckie and I went to Science World to see Lego models. Right now, the special theme from Science World is "LEGO: Secrets of the Pharaohs". Seeing those models made me think about the old days when I was playing Lego with my brother when I was still in HK. The models shown in Science Worlds were a lot more massive, and complex, and knowing the builders use only the regular Lego bricks made me keep saying "WOW!" hahaha...I love the models!

Caption: The photo shown on the left is the sign outside Science World.

This is one of the many sets of Lego display shown in Science World. I wonder how many months the builders spent on designing and building them...

This is the biggest Lego display in Science World. It's life size! Even the pole on the right is Leo made.

Anyway, after we left Science World, we walked outside along the outside of the Science World. I love the talks with Duckie. hehehee... I took some more pictures, and these are two of the many photos I took.

Caption: Beautiful Vancouver!

Caption: Science World

I gotta see Duckie today!

I didn't see Duckie since last Friday, which was the last day of normal school days for this Summer 2006 semester. After school ended, Duckie and I talked in MSN instead. Well, it was ok, but I can't compare that with actual face-to-face conversation.

Today, I read something cool. It talks about how couples like to chat together without actually talking to share their feelings. I find it quite cool, actually.

This is the article I am talking about:

This link had been removed by kittyangel, because this file had been removed from the webspace.

Take a look at the article....quite interesting. ^^

So happy with Duckie

I am so happy with Duckie these days. First of all, Duckie gave me this Hello Kitty & Daniel wedding stuffed animals set. heheh...It's really really cute.

Thank you Duckie!

And...I have something more. He FINALLY subscribed to the Rogers phone plan. hehe... now I can actually chat with him on the cell phone without too much worries about how much minutes I used every month. He made me soo happy. hehee...but there is a small problem: I can't remember his phone number. XD

Too bad it's the exam period, or I can see Duckie a lot more. Oh well...lucky we have webcams. hehee.. Duckie got a webcam for us too. hehee

Song name revealed

From the song I mentioned in a post (Cute song XD) from a few days ago, I said that I will tell you the name of the song today.

The song's name is: Misty's Song

It's a song from the Pokémon anime. I used to watch it once in a while when I was in elementary school (primary school). heehhee

If you want to read the lyrics, click here.
If you want the song, leave me a message and I will send it to you. If I don't know your e-mail address, then leave your e-mail address here.

GOTTA CATCH'EM ALL

Thanks to kitty's great effort (and her inspiring song from below), it helped me dig up some old and super happy memories from gr 7.

After kitty told me what and where did the song below came from, I received a song that i haven't heard for years!!! I MEAN YEARS!! THE POKEMON OPENING THEME SONG!!

Hahaha, it basically made me laugh non-stop for at least an hr after i received the song. Not to mention i am singing along with it. It is great to have such memories XD

By the time, the song got to the lyric "You teach me and I teach you, POKEEEEMOOON", I am almost out of breath because of laughing.

No wonder pokemon could/(maybe can, since I don't think it ended yet) be soooooooo good, just listening to the song makes me wanna go watch an eps.

SO HAPPY, THX KITTY :D
I LOVE YOU

Cute song XD

Today, I heard this old song that I used to like very much. (back when I was in grade 7) XD

Here is the lyrics of the song: (see if you can find out what song that is)

Out here in the quiet of the night
Beneath the stars and moon
We both know there's something on our minds
We won't admit, but it's true
You look at me, I look away

I wanna' tell you what I'm feeling
But I don't know how to start
I wanna tell you, but now I'm afraid
That you might break my heart
Oh, why should anything so easy ever be so hard to do
I wanna' tell you what I'm feeling, and to say that,
I love you

I practice all the things that I could say
Line by line, every word
I tell myself that this could be the day
But everytime, I lose my nerve
I look at you, you look away

I wanna' tell you what I'm feeling
But I don't know how to start
I wanna tell you, but now I'm afraid
That you might break my heart
Oh, why should anything so easy ever be so hard to do
I wanna' tell you what I'm feeling, and to say that,
I love you

Why, why do you turn away
It must be, you're afraid like me
I try, but I can't pretend that I
Don't feel for you the way I do
Can't you see

I wanna' tell you what I'm feeling
But I don't know how to start
I wanna tell you, but now I'm afraid
That you might break my heart
Oh, why should anything so easy ever be so hard to do
I wanna' tell you what I'm feeling, and to say that,
I love you

Do you know what song this is? If you know, comment me with the song's title. If not, you can comment me here too. I want to hear from you. ^^

It's SOOOO hot today!

I am glad it's night again....because during the day, the sun shines on your skin, and that really hurts. Not only that, it will keep getting you sweat a lot, and you can't do anything except keep drinking water and hoping that it will get cooler again.

I have a fan behind me right now, and that's the only option I can get....since I don't have an air conditioner. *sob sob* I wish I can have that.....*thinking about the one I got when I was still in Hong Kong* XD

Anyway, I am going to sleep now. If I am going out tomorrow, I might go take some photos and share with you guys.

Hi to all friends who read my blog...thank you for your support!

Hello Hello

It had been a week since I wrote a blog entry here. I had been really busy, and quite frustrated on the works that I was supposed to finish.

Anyway, lets talk about something more interesting.

Yesterday, I was playing around this "computer calling" feature in MSN (or WLM) with Duckie. That's a feature that allows MSN (or WLM) users to chat with each other with voice (and text, of course). It's like talking to the phone, but except, the signals are passed through the network online using the users' computers. Anyway, it was really fun..hahahaa XD I want to try again ^^

Italy won!

I took a bath at 9:00AM in the morning, came out of the bathroom an hour later (I know it's a long bath, but I like it XD), ate breakfast, then went to watch the World Cup final at around 11:00AM. When I got to the living room, my dad and brother were there waiting for the game already. They were watching the pre-game show. hahaa....people singing, celebrating...really really exciting.

Anyway, Italy WON, after 5-3 penalty shots. XD I was sooo excited, and I was like "YES!" XD
This photo was taken (not by me, of course XD) when the captian of Italy, Fabio Cannavaro, was holding the World Cup. hehehe...He looks quite cute, huh? =P

And the people outside the stadium were cheering for them too. XD

P.S. Hmm....I realized the picture isn't the stadium. I think it's from Rome. XD How stupid can I get?

Just a short comment

I had created a new photo album yesterday. Normally, I use the one provided by Yahoo!, which I will upload some pictures I like (not me, of course =P).

Anyway, here is the site:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/kittyangel/

If I have a chance, I will post some pictures of Vancouver, or perhaps me...hahaha XD...If Duckie doesn't mind, he can be included as well. Duckie, tell me what you think about this idea.

P.S. I will put that link up on my personal homepage where all my sites are linked from.

It's getting cooler again...weeee!

About a week ago, it was sooo hot in Vancouver. I kept sweating, and this made me wanting to bath at least 2 times a day. Well...I didn't do that, of course, because my skin would start to peel off because of the dryness of my skin. Instead, what I did was keep changing my shirts...nice idea huh? =P

It's not only me who suffered from this. I think my poor laptop was suffering too. During these days, my laptop didn't seem to be really stable. It could freeze when I only started to use Firefox, or even chat in WLM (I don't want to call it MSN anymore...since the name changed already). I hope that doesn't happen again, or else I will start to complain to that store I got this laptop from. XD

I need to clean up my computer really really soon. I only have about 300MB left in my C drive, 4.45GB in my D drive, and 6.16GB in my E drive. hahahaa....I have to delete some of my downloads, I guess.

I feel so sad all the sudden

I wanna cry...
I said I would not sleep to wait for him to finish the work.

And what did I at the end? He finished the work, and argued with me, then he said he was going to go before me.

What the heck?

He doesn't love me. Why am I here for him?

Totally heartbreaking. I have no one to talk to now...I am so lonely. Why does he have to do that to me?

He really wants to leave me? Maybe...I don't know. I don't know how long will I stay up tonight...but certainly, I don't want to lie down to think about this problem.

I will not cry, and stay strong instead. I can do it...I can do it...at least...hopefully...

Love Duckie love Duckie!

I have nothing else to say today, besides...

I LOVE YOU, DUCKIE!

You said you will be with me forever. I hope you can do it. ^^ I always think about you.
*MEEOOOWW*

It's sooo hot these days!

Err....the temperature went up to almost 32 degree Cel these days. It makes me want to go out and swim. XD heheehe

Gotta rest a bit after tomorrow....hehehee....

Anyway, gotta go back to work. See you.

I am back for a while

Yesterday, I slept at 4am, and today, I woke up at 10:00am. I am too tired, and stressed. Life is soo busy these days. My cousin came to Canada to apply courses in Canada. I don't know if she will get accepted, but anyway....that's not something I can take care of.

Amadeus, I am sorry that I didn't have enough time to reply your e-mails or your comments in this blog. I don't think I can reply it right now....I am just too tired to read anything or think of anything. I am happy that my favorite had won a world cup game today. I felt really excited. ^^

Anyway, I don't have any recent pictures of my life. I just know I want to sleep...lol

I am sorry, my friends.

It had been more than a week since the last time I wrote here. It had been a week of tireness, and sadness. I don't feel too comfortable reading and writing on the computer, and so, I didn't really do anything here. I didn't comment that much like before as well, nor did I reply e-mails.

I feel sorry to my many friends who might had felt being ignored by me. I am here to tell you, that I, kittyangel, am not ignoring anyone I know.

I am sorry.

Eyes are still tired

My eyes are getting worse these days. I had forced myself to look at the screen these days, because I need to finish my assignment. At the end, however, I still need Duckie to help me a lot with the problems I have. I feel sad that I need to end up doing that, because I hate it when I need help from other people.

Anyway, last Saturday, there was an open house in SFU. There were a lot of people there, especially the little kids with parents, and some grade 12 students, I guess.

This a picture I took when I was in the Applied Science Building. That's the building where the faulty of Applied Science is managed. The two main programs that Applied Science is well known for are Engineering Science and Computing Science. Anyway, that's the place I always go in the school. That's where the CSIL lab (computer lab) is located.

Anyway, that's enough of promoting my school. hahaha....these days, I will try my best to rest my eyes. This entry takes me a lot of energy to type, as I feel really tired after work, and in these few days, I usually go to sleep at around 3AM. I know this isn't a good idea, but I don't really have a choice.

P.S. Excuse me if I had typed anything that doesn't make sense, or anything that I typed wrong.

Don't feel too well

I didn't blog for a while.

Probably my mood, or health, that made me stop blogging for a while. I don't feel like talking these days. I keep having some sorts of big/small arguments with duckie. Well, it's more like some madness in me which got me to yell or at mad at duckie whenever he made me a bit disappointed or sad. Looking back at the diary entries I had in my booklet, I realize I had countless of sad memories with him. The first sad entries I had was back in November 2004 (I am not going to mention the details here). However, that's not so important, as I had the saddest entry (which had a length of an essay) in July/August 2005. These two years have too many ups and downs. My health, is getting weaker and weaker slowly.

Really really tired....from everything I did.
Hopefully, things will be happy happy again.

Duckie's pink rose

Earlier in Duckie's post, My backyard plants, Duckie said that he would show you some pictures of his pink roses when they came out. Well, he sent me a picture of the flower last night, so I guess I might as well help him to post it for you guys. I hope he doesn't mind that.

Anyway, in these few days, I don't feel too well. I will take care, and hopefully, I will be well again by Saturday. ^^

MacBook

I really want a MacBook. Not only it looks so white (or black), it is really useful for having more than one OS in one single laptop. I find that really amazing; it's like having my dream finally comes true.

I wish I can get one of those, but too bad I already own a laptop that works quite good already. It sounds like a waste of money for getting another computer that seems only a bit better than this current one.

Hmm...I guess I will really need to think about this.

Duckie and Kitty

I love these two stuffed animals sooo much. They are gifts from duckie, and they represent him and me loving each other. I love you, duckie. I love you!

My cat vs Duckie

I love my cat...hahaa....I love how she sleeps, eats, and of course, MEOWS! hahaa

Maybe, I love Duckie more, but I don't know..hahahaa =P

My backyard plants

These are my backyard plants plants :D

The first pic on the left is from last year and the second pic is from this year (I just took it like 1 min ago :P)!!

Can't wait for the flowers to come out...I am expecting soooo many flowers!! Especially the roses, pink pink roses (the left most plant).

With the sunshine these days, I expect flowers to come out in a week or less AND I WILL POST MORE PHOTOS by then :D

I can't believe how much they grow, so happy to see this to happen. :D

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Other news

Things are pretty much the same these days, BUT i just found out they are remaking final fantasy 3 O_O, so cool so cool!!

When will they stop remaking the fantasy :P

Writing to Duckie

Duckie, this is a letter for you. hehee

P.S. This is getting late for me to reply all the previous comments. I guess I will reply as soon as possible. Sorry about that.

Night market

Monday is Victoria Day, and so, we will get a day off on Monday (May 22nd). It's really good for me, because I do want a rest off. hahahaa..Afterall, it's Summer time!

Tonight is quite interesting. My mom and I went to Richmond Night Market for a while. Similar to last year, the place was crowded with all kinds of people, buying and selling jewelries, clothings, cell phone straps, woman handbags, car accessories, etc. It wasn't a bad place, and there were food for people eat for midnight snack too. Even though I don't like eating in those places, I think the way they do for this business is good. haaha....caution those people who want to go there: I suggest you to walk to there, because the parking fee in 3 dollars. hahaa...I know a lot of people parked nearby and walked to the market instead. hahaaa

Too bad I didn't have a camera at that time, or I could take a picture of that place, and share with you guys.

It was such a cold night.

This special smilie

I don't know why. Every time I use this smilie , I will smile. And...every time I smile, I will be a lot happier. And, does that mean, this smilie makes me a lot happier? hahaaa

I am weird....lol

Nothing much to say today. I am tired after work.

I want to sleep for a while. hahaa...but I will have dinner soon, so I will try to relax while eating.

I love you, Duckie.

I want Duckie

Today, I leaned on Duckie's shoulder, and I just realized, I felt sooo good like that. heheehe...so comfortable! I wish Duckie is here right now. *looking for Duckie...'s shoulder XD*

I want duckie's shoulder, I want duckie's shoulder...and heeey, I want duckie's hands too. hahahaa

XD

Hm....I think that, in general, I want Duckie!

Blog change

I had just changed my blog's appearance again. I modified the blog's CSS, and XHTML. If you have anything that you think I should change, please tell me. I will see what I can do about it. ^^ By the way, I had also used an image as part of the header of this blog.

I wonder what that is

Today, I suddenly realized that my CMPT prof had finally upgraded his Google Talk client. Wow...it's sure amazing...I wonder what the display picture is. Is that a duckie? It sure looks soo funny. hahaaa....I really want to ask him. hehee

Imagining Duckie on bed

Sometimes, I like to imagine how duckie is like when he is sleeping. I had never saw him sleeping soundly on his comfortable bed. I think he must be really really cute, like a yellow duck (Piyo Piyo).

or...

maybe, he sleeps too soundly that he wakes up everyone, and...drools over his face. XD

but...

I guess I want to think of him in a good way. hahaaa

I wonder how much I love him...forever? hmm...perhaps.

He will always be my sweet [and sour (sure want to eat Chicken McNugget)] duckie. I love you, duckie.

Duckie's blog

OHHH First time i blog here :P

OMG, i didn't even know how to post a new entry here >< I am sooooooo stupid
AND BOOOOOO, kitty didn't teach me how...XP

Currently kitty is going crazy about all the bracelet and necklace she sees on ebay (INSANELY CRAZY) XD

How come there are so many packet lost on msn?? I just missed a bracelet picture that looks very nice (or refer to kitty: "THE MOST BEAUTIFUL THING I SAW TODAY")

Wonder if there is a way to fix this...

Hope the stupid packets stop falling off the router queue >< otherwise i will go insane

I love you kitty

~duckie duckie duckie

A bit of update on this site

As you may had noticed before I post this entry, some ads had been added on the top and on the sidebar. I don't have high hopes that they will gain me revenue for maintaining this site, but I will try my best anyway. If you are interested in the ads (which I don't think you will...hahaa), please kindly click on the ads to support me. Every bit helps a lot in the long run.

I am a supporter of Firefox as well (being a member in the Spreadfirefox.com and a Google Adsense member supporting Firefox). If you think your current browser (if your current browser isn't Firefox at the moment), download Firefox and give it a try. You may end up like me, who tried it out in its beta version and fell in love with its speed, and secureness.

Thanks for reading my blog. I value every visitor here, and you are all welcomed to leave a message.

Have a nice weekend, everyone.

Some interesting I saw in Windows Live Messenger

I saw a duckie in Windows Live Messenger. Isn't that cool? hahahaa
I totally found that amazing when I first saw it. hahaa...

Talk about my interest in duckie. hahaaa

Duckie went out for a while.....while I...

HEHEHE...I saw this nice house near Riverport Way.

http://www.waterstonepier.com/waterstoneFlash.html

Well, everything started with looking at this ad from the mailbox. I was like...WOW...nice photo. I love that view. hehee...

Too bad it's that expensive ($279,900 to $699,000 CAD), and I know that having a house near shore and in Richmond isn't that good. Besides that, it looks just great. hahaaa

*dreaming of getting a new house*

Days after duckie's return

After Duckie came back from his trip, he showed me the pictures he took in Portland with his family (mainly with his sisters, I guess). From his photos, I can tell he was really happy in Portland. He bought me a small flashlight as a gift. heehe..Thank you my dear cutie duckie. (Let me upload a picture here later.)

Anyway, duckie came back on Monday, and I had work that day, so I didn't see him. On Tuesday, he had a driving test, so he didn't see me. So..today, we finally got a chance to see each other. After an argument we had last night, we are now fine fine again. Man....our relationship is so unstable. Anyway, I hope we will be fine fine again...seriously.

sorry, duckie. lets work for our relationship together. ^^

Today, we took some pictures of a duck we saw in water. hehee.....I think that duck was as cute as my cutie duckie, but too bad that duck flew away after we bothered it for a while. hehee...oh well...

Second day without Duckie

The second day without duckie...nothing much had happened. I promised that I will help my dad to burn his DVDs, so I helped him after I fixed up something up on my computer.

I am as lazy as the past week. I still don't wanna do anything yet. hahaa

Anyway, today, I moved all the SMS messages to my computer. I want to store as many messages as possible. I don't know if I will read them later, but I love to keep all the things duckie sent me. And so, I always try my best to keep them.

Hmm....today seems so quiet, but I am happy. I don't know why. In these 2 days, the feelings I had before I met duckie has returned to me. The only difference I had between those 2 feelings is that this one I have right now involving thinking about duckie once in a while. I am actually feeling happy even though I am missing him. I don't have this feeling for a long time. I really don't know how this feeling can return to me.

Duckie, I wonder where you are. Are you returning to Canada? Are you still in Portland? Are you having a lot of fun? I miss your MSN messages. I miss your voice in the phone. I miss the look in your face when you stare at me. You never told me when you will be back in Canada. Will I be able to talk to you before I go to work tomorrow? Will I be able to talk to you at all? Have you ever think about me? Have you keep your promise?

You said you were worried how it would be like if we are separated for a while. I know it's only 2 days of separation, but I can tell you something. I think I have returned to normal. At the least, I will not cry when you are not here with me. I can be independent again, and I have kept your promise. I am feeling happy, and I am just patiently waiting for your return.

I wonder if you will check your e-mail once you are back, or will you go to sleep right away because you are too tired to turn on your computer? I wonder if you will even check my blog, a blog which I created especially for you. I wonder....I wonder....I have so many unknowns that I can't wait to find out the truth.

Duckie, I love you forever. I can't wait to talk to you again. Hopefully, when I wake up tomorrow, you will be here, smiling at me with your MSN grinning face.

In here, I wish you have a good night, and sweet dreams.

First day without Duckie

The first day without duckie...I was generally happy. When I woke up, I wasn't too happy, to be honest, but when I realized duckie is going to have a lot of fun in Portland, I just smile. :) I wish duckie is going to have a lot of fun in the weekend.

Today, my family (included me, of course) went to eat all-you-can-eat. It was sooo tasty, and got me all full. hahahaa....I love sushi!

And, today, we went to Aberdeen Centre becuase my mom wanted to do something in HSBC bank. Meanwhile, I just walked around, and I saw this cute shirt..hahaa...

And, I had realized the cartoon on this shirt was the thing this store was selling. The whole store had this character on all its fashion clothings. It was quite cute, seriously. I wanted one of that too, but I wasn't too interested to really go into the store and checked out the price. hahaa....

Anyway, after that, we went to Staples for a walk, then we went back home, and I slept like a pig.

Considering I just ate all-you-can-eat and went to sleep after about an hour, I just realized it was quite bad an idea. hahaaa

Duckie, I miss you. Wish you are having a lot of fun.

Duckie, have fun in the weekend!

Duckie is leaving Vancouver for two days (or more....I don't know) in the weekend. That's the first time, in about two years of our relationship, that we will not even talk to each other, including in MSN. In the past, we always talked to each other, at least in MSN, even when we couldn't see each other. This event made me really upset, but then, I know, it's just two days. Oh well....I know he will not stay for me. Like feeling sad will get him to stay for me.

Anyway, today, before he goes to US, we went out to see each other. I was really really happy to see him. However, when I thought about missing him, I sobbed for a moment. I really love duckie. I wish I can see him again, really soon.

I promise duckie that I will stay happy in these days when I cannot see him. I know I can do it. I will stay happy and wait for his return.

I love you, duckie. I wish you are going to have a lot of fun with your family.

so wanna cry

I feel really hurted...what should I do? I wanna cry...but no one is with me. I know I need to be strong. I know I need to be good. No one loves me now. Do I still love duckie? maybe not anymore....

I feel so sad...

Everytime I want him, he isn't here for me anymore. What should I do?

Duckie hurted me again...

Sometimes, I really don't understand what duckie is thinking. He said he loves me, but he never did anything to show that. For example, in the weekend, he will go to US with his family (he abandoned me, of course). On Tuesday, he will take the driver test, and again, forget me. He knows that I have work on Monday, but still..he will rest when I am busy, and get busy when I am available to see him. Too bad I can't change my work schedule, or I can see him as well. I really don't get what he is thinking....I really don't get it. Maybe.....all he wants is to leave me alone, so he can do whatever he wants to.

He really hurted me.....but sigh....

I know I will need to concentrate on something else. Maybe...I should start to depend on something else, but not him. I need to find my true happiness.

In these days...

After duckie's birthday, my regular schedule changed quite a bit.

On Monday, I woke up at about 11:00am, then I read a book called "Marley and Me" for about half an hour. I checked out some websites, talked to duckie in msn for a while, then I went to work. When I came back from work, it's already about 7:35pm. I went to eat something, then I took a bath. I watched some TV while eating dinner, washed the dishes, then I went to sleep.

On Tuesday (today), I thought I could see duckie, as he told me on Sunday that I could see him. However, he told me that he was tired, and he didn't want to come out. blaaaah....excuse for him. I do hate him, but oh well.....takes too much energy to hate him right now.
And...just now, he told me he wants to go biking. Man...how much I hate him. He said he wanted to stay home yesterday, so he could rest or something. Now, he says he wants to go out on his own. ..... What can I say? I am feeling so sad...I hope someone can realy comfort me now.

Anyway, I had modified my old desktop computer a bit. This is how my computer is like right now. (lol...what a mess, but oh well).

Happy birthday!

Duckie, happy birthday. I wish you had a happy birthday today. I know I didn't mention too much about birthday to you, but I hope you will understand. From what my mom told me, we shouldn't mention too much about birthday. As long as you know we are celebrating your birthday, and I know you are happy happy, then I am happy already. It's just my habit of never mention too much about it....so I hope you will understand.

Always love you,
Kitty

Tomorrow will be duckie's birthday!

Tomorrow is duckie's birthday! Happy birthday, little cute duckie. ^^
I wish you are feeling good good everyday.

Amadeus, just to let you know. You are welcomed to comment in me in this blog. You asked me if you can comment here, but I was bathing at that time. Sorry about that.

2 days till duckie's birthday

Two days till Duckie's birthday. I think I start to feel more excited for my little cutie duckie. =P hahaaa
I hope you are feeling ok, duckie. Get well soon!

Sorry for late posting today. I feel really sick right now.

3 days till duckie's birthday

Three days till Duckie's birthday. I feel more happy for him. Duckie, I don't know if I can celebrate with you that day, but I do wish you will be happy happy as always. Wishing you that you will be healthy is the greatest wish I have. I always feel happy to see you looking healthy.

I love you, duckie. Happy happy birthday.

4 days till duckie's birthday

Only four days till duckie's birthday. Since this is supposed to be a blog for duckie, I will post it here. Happy happy birthday, duckie.

I wish you are happy and healthy every year.

I love you forever, duckie. I know our love will never end.

New monitor

Well, it's not me who got a new monitor. It's my dad who got a new monitor for his computer. hahaaa

This is the rough specs of this monitor.
Model: Sony MFM-HT75W

Type: Monitor, TV

Screen Size: 17 inches

Native Resolution: 1280 x 768 pixels x pixels

Supported EDTV and HDTV Resolutions: 1080i pixels

Aspect Ratio: 16:10

Video Inputs: Component, Composite, DVI, RF, S-Video

PC Interfaces: Analog VGA and DVI-D

Built-in TV Tuner: NTSC

pixel Response Time (Gray to Gray): 16 milliseconds

Rated Contrast Ratio: 800:1

Brightness (Max): 450 cd/m^2



Pretty much...you can use it as a TV or a LCD monitor. It's pretty cool. haahaa...

Duckie and I

This blog is supposed to be for my little duckie, but I started to mess this blog around with my personal issues. Well, it's not because duckie isn't important to me anymore. Just that, sometimes, I feel too frustrated in my other issues that I just complained whenever I have a chance.

My relationship with duckie had been going too horrible. I had been yelling at him everyday and kept telling that that we will be breaking up. However, I know I love him more than anyone I know in my life. And, I know, I will love him forever.

And today, I think I finally think things through. I decide to stay with him, and love him. I will try my best to understand him, and will never say anything about breaking up again. I want to fix up our relationship, and perhaps, we can be really really happy, like how we had been before (a long time ago).

In the past, I had been thinking that duckie doesn't like me that much. It seemed to me that he had been always selfish, and only thought about him first. I know, however, that he loves me (at least that's what I think he is).

Now, I will try to change. My temper hadn't been good at all, it led me to change my personality a lot. I said a lot of non-sense things, and asked duckie to do something that I know he couldn't do it. My purpose was to make him struggled with me, and perhaps leave me alone.

Duckie, I am sorry for everything I caused. I will love you more, and perhaps a lot more than before. Please take care of yourself. I know one day, we will be happy again, and maybe, a lot more happy than before.

I love you forever

P.S. I had enabled the comment section in this blog. There is a chance that I will close down my forum. If you have anything to say, maybe it's better if you reply in here instead.

I love this pencil

You can tell I am not even a good blogger anymore. I only write a blog in my blogs once in a while. Maybe I am too lazy, or too busy, but doesn't matter. haahaa

Anyway, I am currently wanting a Pilot pencil (Dr. Grip).







It looks so cool, eh? hahaaa

Anyway, I have to work really hard. So....talk to you later! ^^

Registered

I registered my courses for next semester (Summer 2006) at 1:30PM today. Everything was going smoothly, and I was quite happy for what I want to take. Till day, I still wonder what I want to get when I graduate. I can get a Software Engineering specialist degree, or I can just get a regular Computing Science degree (but concentrating on Information Systems) from the faculty of Applied Science. I had asked for advice from my dad, and he told me to go for the one that makes more money. Well, how do I know which one makes more money. It all depends on whether or not I can get a job in that field or not, right? hahahaa...but if I really want to, I think I will go for a Software Engineering specialist degree, while still concentrating on Information Systems. I hope that's a right choice, and I will work hard on it. ^^

Anyway, in the last few days, I kept having pop-ups on my computer. I managed to clear everything off 2 days, which I was actually quite happy to know that I didn't have to format my computer.

To anyone who reads my blog, thank you for your support.

I love you, duckie.

I am still sick

Week after week, I am still sick. However, besides my parents, nobody seems to care about me. Oh well...life is like that.

Anyway, lets talk about something happier. Wednesday is my registration date. I guess it's time for me to bring my computer again, or I will have to use one of those stupid dirty computers in Burnaby/Surrey.

My cat...is lazy as usual. It's currently sleeping in my pile of junk. I really admire her. XD

And, recently, I am deeply interested in the new Sony Ericsson cell phone (K800i). It's not the camera I like, it's the overall appearance. hahahaaa

Complaints

I didn't update my blog for over 10 days in here. How lazy can I become. I hate myself.

These days, I wasn't really that happy. I am not too sure why I wasn't too happy though. Maybe I was too sick to do anything, or maybe I was in a mood to write anything here.

Anyway, everything should be happier now. I hope...at least.

Anyway, my courses for next semester are chosen. I hope everything will turn out good in my summer semester. gotta work harder. ^^
duckie is being cheap as usual...lol....he sells all his books right after that for some money...
didn't even borrow his books to me, when I had wanted to use it 2 semesters ago..oh well, because of that, I had taken another course. XD

Like other people, I love the books that I have. Why do I have to sell them? lol....They had been my friends; I don't want to kick them away after I had used them. That's just....pointless.

I hope duckie is not taking any course with me. I don't like to take anything with him anymore. Who cares about him.

And...think of the good side. I can concentrate more on my work, and no need to reply a thing that he says.

As usual, he is the cocky person who thinks he is perfect in everything....

Things are keeping me busy as usual

I didn't write for 3 days here, and 3 weeks in my spymac blog. That's kinda sad, but I had been way too busy with everything I have to do: midterms, assignments, readings, and project. Things are driving me crazy, and I don't know how to keep up with everything I need to do.

I still haven't pay my deposit for next semester yet, and I still don't to pay for my credit card balance. However, I had scheduled 2 weeks ago that I will pay everything off on March 13th, so I know I will not forget it. XD ....kinda a cheap way to keep my money till the last minute.

Anyway, I just got my ECON midterm back, from my Thursday tutorial. I just realized I did horrible on my MC, and good on my written. Kinda funny, and I thought I messed up both. XD

And, I gotta study for LING very soon, since I have a midterm coming up. After this midterm, I have another one coming. It's really weird that I have another midterm near the end of March, when the final is near the beginning of April.

Gotta keep working hard, and finish what I need to do.

P.S. Finally, I wrote something in Spymac, Blogger, and MSN Space. Maybe I will write something in Xanga later. XD

Snowing in SFU

It's snowing in SFU today. It's incredible. I thought it will not snow again since last year in December, I think. Wow! It's soo nice, but too bad I don't have a camera right now, or I can take some photos.

My mom knows that too, when she heard it on the radio. She was like yelling at me for not wearing enough. TT oh well...

Anyway, I just finished off some documentations. I am so sleepy....really want to sleep some. hehee

What he said

He ended up telling me that he went to eat/asked the prof for 1.5 hours. Who will believe such thing like that? I can eat anything within 30 minutes...and ask questions for an hour? What a joke...

He made me so upset.....all he thinks is work/money. Me? well...he will think about me....but only when he is free.

Who can I talk to? Who will truly know how I feel?

Monday without him

This monday without him, I thought I could see him online at 11:30am; that's when he got off class every M/W/F to find me. He said he would find a computer to talk to me instead, but I guess, he was too busy to do that again.

I really miss him...for a few days already.

More work to be done

I don't know what to say today, but then, I want to blog something here.

Hmm...how can I start this?

Hmm...okok...last night, duckie and I argued again. It was pretty stupid, actually. It all started with duckie wanted to go out to "tea" with his family. I got upset because he has time to go out with someone else, but he doesn't have time to see me. I know, that it's reasonable, because going out to see me will take a lot more time than going to places near him. Oh well....lets just face it. oh well...

Anyway, I will try to finish studying LING today. Two more weeks till 2 more midterms. Gotta study and prepare for them. I just finished the BUEC assignment yesterday, and I am going to do some LING today.

One good + one sad = neutral?

One happy thing today, I finally got my 1 mark back from BUEC midterm. I wasn't that happy at my midterm anyway, because, of the rest of the errors I had, I made a stupid error on it, but oh well.

Then I saw duckie today, for 2.75 hours, I believe. Again, he started a topic by telling how great he did for CMPT 320, which he said it was an easy test. Oh well.....that's not really the thing that made me sad about him.

Anyway, when I got to my CMPT class, we got our midterms back, which I did horrible. Like the prof said, the things getting tested are mainly on thoughts about this course, and or course, definitions. Oh well...I will do better next time.

Finally, some updates

I just noticed I didn't blog for so long. I was EXTREMELY busy, and I mean it. I was having 2 midterms, and a lot of readings. I finally went through all these already. congratulations to me. heheee

I just finished all my tax reports and stuff. It took me a while to ask my boss for her T4 form, and I printed SFU's T4 form, as well as the one sent from school, and everything was set. ^^

And....I finished the application form too....

And...oh yeah, tomorrow. I need to do some research. I need to know what I need to do.

lol...a lot of things to do, and I still need to read and finish assignments.

I heard that the next BUEC midterm is going to be hard, as last semester, most people failed the 2nd midterm. :S I hope we will do ok.

Whatever the results are, I will be happy. I really did what I could already, even though I admit that I was really really lazy...(kept listen to music)....

I love music, I love music soooo much. omg.....*dance around*

too bad my cat is sleeping in the garage carbon box again.....weird cat.

and...TT, I didn't paid yet....lol

whatever...

I am such a poor "little" kitty.

I want more M&M

I am so tired these days...so tired that I don't even wanna type or say anything anymore. But then, it's not easy to abandon the computer like that, since I have been using computer everyday since...a long time ago, probably back when I started to have internet, when I was using 56k, with name-unknown provider.

Anyway, I ate a lot more candy yesterday. They were soo tasty...haaha...and I ate dark chocolate too.


(All the peanut M&M's are gone....TT)

Anyway, duckie and I had a big argument yesterday...so painful to talk about it again, so I guess...let me pass away...XD)

I love my cute little cat. It's sooo cute!



I guess...that's it for now. gotta go back to study

I need to...

I really don't get it; why does duckie always do that to me?
Oh well.....I will try try try to be happy. I have to be happy.

I really want to learn now. I don't know why. I want to absorb everything I can. So now...I am asking him to teach me everything he learned. Too bad though, he doesn't want to teach me yet, which depressed quite a lot.

I don't mean to act so bad to him. Who told him to leave me alone? Who told him to do everything without me? Who told him for acting this way?

Oh well...I will try try try to act happy. I know I can force myself to act happy. ^^I need to start acting now.

Duckie left me last night

Duckie left me last night, and he doesn't want to come back to me anymore.
Sigh...

I will support him mentally...from really far away.
I will support him, without...telling him how much I love him.

*cries*

I am so lonely these days. When I am feeling especially frustrated and sad, duckie will not be by my side. He always says he supports me, but from how he acts, he never does. All he cares is his works, and nothing else. He might cares about his family, but since I am not part of his family, he just never really cares about me. He only wants to see me when he has time, which makes me extremely sad.

These days, I had been always working. The only thing I really wish from him is that he can see me. However, he didn't choose to do that. He doesn't even talk to me, sigh.....

He isn't really my boyfriend, I guess.
Since he doesn't act like one.

hehe...suprise for today

I didn't write anything for a while again. I was soo busy that I didn't even eat properly everyday, and I got my mom mad for quite a few times.

Anyway, today in LING, the prof realized she screwed up the last question from the midterm (the FSA question, which I got it wrong). Well, as the result, from a test that was out of 32, she made it out of 31. woohoo...and now I get a few percent higher. hahaa

And today, I came to Surrey earlier (I am currently in Surrey anyway). I guess I have more time to do my work. haahaa

I want more M&M

Suddenly, I really want to eat M&M. I ate a lot these days already...haahaa...In the last few days, I thought too much, so I need more sugar in my body =P *making an excuse*

I will never giveup

lol..I will never giveup...
I will sleep now..haaha

soo tired.

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He is tired already

Duckie is tired with me; he is tired of me saying leaving him already.
He is tired of loving me; he is tired of trying to get me back already.

Maybe he doesn't love me anymore.
I can tell how tired he is from his words in MSN.
I can tell that he doesn't want to do anything to save our relationship anymore, because he knows that he had done all he could.

I know he is tired to continue this. I know he is tired...

He said he is not sensitive anymore, but to me, everything he said is always sensitive, till one day, my love to him dies.

If this is the case, does that mean he loves me less already?

Probably....he had lied to me once, he can lie again. Maybe he loves me less, just that he doesn't know how to tell me.

I wish he loves me as much as before. He knows that, even if he says "I love you forever" 10 thousands times, I will not believe him.

He said I always hurt from because I always want to leave him, but does he know how much he always hurts me? Probably yes, but he doesn't know what to do.

I don't know what to do anymore. Maybe...I will leave this alone, and let it be natural.

Went out to eat with family

I woke up at 10:15am today, then went out to eat with my family. I was gonna tell duckie last night about this, but he left me without waiting for me for 10 seconds or so. I didn't tell him, then I left to eat.

I went to this casino restaurant to eat. Of course, my family would not even try to go to the casino part of the while building; however, since we heard that the food there is quite cheap, we decided to try things out there.



Anyway, after we ate, we went back home without doing any shopping.

When I got out of the car, we noticed something really interesting. Someone was spy on us.



haahaa...it was really really funny.

By the way, I found out that there were some scratches on my digital camera. It hurted me quite a lot, but oh well...as long as it works, it doesn't really matter right?