Leaving Vancouver in a few days

I cannot believe that I only have four days before I have to leave Vancouver.  As most of you know, I had been living in Vancouver for more than 10 years.  That's longer than the time I had lived in Hong Kong.  I am excited about the new change, but I am also feeling a bit nervous about it.  I don't know if everything will go smoothly.  I worry, not because I am not believing I don't the ability to handle such change, but because of my parents, and also my future in terms of career and education.  It's true that many people admire what I can do, and what I have, but do they even know how much effort I had put in to become how I am today?  Oh yes...I am a bit proud because of who I am, but I am also feeling ashamed because I can never fully control what I want to do in my life.  That's one reason why I want to find a job outside British Columbia.  I think that can make me more independent, and more mature.  And of course, I will have more freedom as well. =)

I will miss my Vancouver friends for the next little while, but I think it's ok.  As long as I have a "heart" to keep in touch, nothing is impossible.  My friends will always be my friends, and that will never change.  It doesn't matter where I am, we can always chat, and have fun with each other.

Happy holidays

I had been wanting to get out of my house to do some window shopping for the past few days, but I didn't get a chance as there were too much snow!!

If you are curious, check out some of my photos that I had uploaded to Facebook. =)

I am so sleepy right now...maybe I will type more later.

Merry Christmas and a happy new year, everyone!!

Family pressure

My parents give me tons of pressure...
I don't even know how to explain my situation right now.  Thinking about the situation makes me very depressed, but I guess writing something down here will make me feel a bit better.

Argggh....I can't study what I want; I can't go out to find my bf in peace...and there are many many more.

I don't want to admit I am a bad girl.  I do try to do my best to be a good daughter, by helping them, caring for them, loving them.  I listen to them (by not studying something I really like), but let me some freedom with what I want to do!!  Please!!  I need a break!!

Argggh.....I don't think my blog entry makes a lot of sense right now, but whatever...I don't feel like fixing it up.

Understanding

It's hard to understand a man...
When I don't see him for a while, I will start to think...does he care? I wonder what he did..or what he is currently doing.
Perhaps I will never truly know what he is doing...
I had asked..."do you love me?"
"Of course!" he said.
Should I believe it? How much can I trust this?
One friend told me, "You should ignore your feelings if you don't have a good reason to believe he doesn't love you."
Maybe my friend is right....I should try to understand him. However, it doesn't make me feel happier.
Am I too sensitive? Maybe I am....and that's probably why I don't want to say too much to him. I don't want him to think that I am annoying him with stupid questions like these.
Maybe I should trust my lover...
I should trust him that he is just working hard. I should trust him that he loves me too. I should trust him that he is working hard for our future.

Last day of Kumon

Today is my last day of Kumon.
Well....it's supposed to be November 27th, but I agreed to help out for a few more days.
I am going to miss working there.

Forgotten Season

It's time for me to share another song. =)

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재중 - 잊혀진계절
Jaejoong - Forgotten Season

지금도 기억하고 있어요
시월의 마지막 밤을
뜻 모를 이야기를 남긴채
우리는 헤어졌지요..

Even now I am remembering
The last night of October
Words left behind hold an incomprehensible meaning
We have parted ways..

그 날의 쓸쓸했던 표정이
그대의 진실인 가요..
한 마디 변명도 못하고
잊혀져야 하는 건가요..

The expression of loneliness that day
Was that your truth?
Even if you couldn't say a single word of excuse
Must I be forgotten?

언제나 돌아오는 계절은
나에게 꿈을 주지만
이룰 수 없는 꿈은 슬퍼요..
나를 울려요 ...

A season that always comes back
Is a dream to me, yet
A dream that can't be realized is forlorn
It brings me sorrow...

그 날의 쓸쓸했던 표정이
그대의 진실인 가요..
한 마디 변명도 못하고
잊혀져야 하는 건가요..

The expression of loneliness that day
Was that your truth?
Even if you couldn't say a single word of excuse
Must I be forgotten?

언제나 돌아오는 계절은
나에게 꿈을 주지만
이룰 수 없는 꿈은 슬퍼요..
나를 울려요 ...
나를 울려...

A season that always comes back
Is a dream to me, yet
A dream that can't be realized is forlorn
It brings me to tears....
It brings me to...