I talked to my friend yesterday afternoon. He knows me for a long time...he is basically my "brother", so he knows how I think. He told me that I like to communicate with people a lot, but I should think about myself more. Don't get myself hurt all the time.
Now...I ask myself. Am I that kind of person? Maybe...I got hurt in August, because of my oppa brother. It took me a while to get myself back again. The most stupid thing is....is that I know I will get hurt, but I still do it. How come I didn't do anything? Should I change?
I try to be positive. I try to make the people around me happy. I don't want to ask for return. If I expect for return, I know I will get more hurt.
I talk to God a lot. Is that a test He is giving me? If I can be with a person who can stay with me forever, isn't that great? I don't want to play around with anyone. I just want to be loyal to one person. I wish I can take care of him forever. I had never cheated...or hurt anyone...how come I can't have someone who cares about me?
I don't know what I am talking about...maybe I just want to say something...
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By the way, I am sick right now. That's probably why I am typing non-sense things. hehe ^^
September 30, 2008
September 28, 2008
Went to Downtown Vancouver
I didn't really go to Downtown for a long time.
I remember the last time I went to Downtown was visiting my old co-workers at Business Objects. Back then, I grabbed a lot of cookies and food from the old co-ops. *^_^*
Downtown gave me some memories. It makes me think about my time when I worked everyday, and had regular meetings. I was respected by all employees there, even when I was just a co-op student. Great times great times!
Another memory....is when I used to eat with my friends in different restaurants, but I didn't do that for a long time!
Anyway, this time, I went to Downtown to meet my new friend. He is a nice and intelligent person. I like him a lot. hehe
I remember the last time I went to Downtown was visiting my old co-workers at Business Objects. Back then, I grabbed a lot of cookies and food from the old co-ops. *^_^*
Downtown gave me some memories. It makes me think about my time when I worked everyday, and had regular meetings. I was respected by all employees there, even when I was just a co-op student. Great times great times!
Another memory....is when I used to eat with my friends in different restaurants, but I didn't do that for a long time!
Anyway, this time, I went to Downtown to meet my new friend. He is a nice and intelligent person. I like him a lot. hehe
September 25, 2008
Volunteering
It had been a dreadful day for me to volunteer today. I was kind of sick already, and I had to wake up at 6:00am so I could take the bus and arrive school before 8:00am. Furthermore, I needed to attend a 3 hour class at 5:30pm. I was basically brain dead by the time my class had started.
I met a lot of new people: students, employers, staff, etc. I am really tired right now, but everything was worth it.
I think I am going to sleep soon, as I have to do the same thing for tomorrow....except this time, I will need to work at Kumon at 2:00pm. ^^
I met a lot of new people: students, employers, staff, etc. I am really tired right now, but everything was worth it.
I think I am going to sleep soon, as I have to do the same thing for tomorrow....except this time, I will need to work at Kumon at 2:00pm. ^^
September 22, 2008
Searching for the one
Yes...I do want a long-term relationship, but I can't just choose anyone who loves me, shouldn't I?
After all these years, I still find it hard to find someone whom I love, and he loves me back. Yes...I have lots of male friends, but we are just friends... I really want to find my true love. Where is he? Can someone tell me? I feel like I had wondered around in my life...searching for my love, yet he is hiding from me.
I know I shouldn't just be with someone who loves me, but I don't love him back. It's just not fair for him.
Sometimes I am very tired. I wonder if I will ever find my special one. Is he in Vancouver? I wish I can meet him soon. I will take care of him, cook for him, love him, cherish him. I know it sounds a bit exergerating, but I think I can really do it. We will form a really good family..and be happy forever. ^^
After all these years, I still find it hard to find someone whom I love, and he loves me back. Yes...I have lots of male friends, but we are just friends... I really want to find my true love. Where is he? Can someone tell me? I feel like I had wondered around in my life...searching for my love, yet he is hiding from me.
I know I shouldn't just be with someone who loves me, but I don't love him back. It's just not fair for him.
Sometimes I am very tired. I wonder if I will ever find my special one. Is he in Vancouver? I wish I can meet him soon. I will take care of him, cook for him, love him, cherish him. I know it sounds a bit exergerating, but I think I can really do it. We will form a really good family..and be happy forever. ^^
September 21, 2008
Homework time
I need to do my homework now...
I hate assignments, because it forces me to work. I don't know why, but I feel a lot more motivated when I am working on an actual job, such a co-op. My work buddy used to tell me to relax, and have fun....but I just continued working.
How come I can't do that at home? I need to get started soon!
I hate assignments, because it forces me to work. I don't know why, but I feel a lot more motivated when I am working on an actual job, such a co-op. My work buddy used to tell me to relax, and have fun....but I just continued working.
How come I can't do that at home? I need to get started soon!
September 20, 2008
Happy birthday, mom
Today is my mom's birthday. Too bad she needs to work..or we can celebrate for a while.
Dad said we are going to have a special dinner with her tonight.
Dad said we are going to have a special dinner with her tonight.
September 17, 2008
Something missing
September 17th...I can't believe it had been 15 days since school had started.
Many things had kept me busy, such as volunteering, taekwondo, school, job search, family, friends, etc. However, I still feel like I am missing a part of myself. I am not too sure what I am missing, but I really need to do something about it.
My life changed a lot since last semester. I became a much quieter person...probably due to the fact that I have a really busy schedule this semester. Or maybe it's because oppa can't keep in touch with me anymore. Oh well..
I don't know what to say right now. All I know is that I really want to write something down, so I come here. Sometimes I love to write...for no reason. Blogging is the best place for me....especially when I don't need to check my grammar and spellings..haha!
And I can probably write a bit of Chinese if I want...哈哈(haha)！
I had stopped learning Hangul for a while, but I should return to this task soon... I was just a bit stressed out in the past few days... not too sure why.
Many things had kept me busy, such as volunteering, taekwondo, school, job search, family, friends, etc. However, I still feel like I am missing a part of myself. I am not too sure what I am missing, but I really need to do something about it.
My life changed a lot since last semester. I became a much quieter person...probably due to the fact that I have a really busy schedule this semester. Or maybe it's because oppa can't keep in touch with me anymore. Oh well..
I don't know what to say right now. All I know is that I really want to write something down, so I come here. Sometimes I love to write...for no reason. Blogging is the best place for me....especially when I don't need to check my grammar and spellings..haha!
And I can probably write a bit of Chinese if I want...哈哈(haha)！
I had stopped learning Hangul for a while, but I should return to this task soon... I was just a bit stressed out in the past few days... not too sure why.
September 14, 2008
Memory of my cat
It had been a year since my cat died. I miss it a lot. I wish I can pet and take care of it again. I wonder where it is right now..I hope it is really happy with God.
I don't know what else I can say about this. I am supposed to be happy today, since today is one of the most important Chinese holidays, but I really don't have the mood to celebrate.
My dear cat, I wish you are happy. I wish you are free from troubles and sadness. No matter where you are, I am always thinking about you.
I don't know what else I can say about this. I am supposed to be happy today, since today is one of the most important Chinese holidays, but I really don't have the mood to celebrate.
My dear cat, I wish you are happy. I wish you are free from troubles and sadness. No matter where you are, I am always thinking about you.
What I did for the past few days
I didn't blog for a while. Life had been more busy than expected. I signed up for a few volunteering positions, and applied for a few job postings that I found online. I need to start reviewing for the things I had learned from school lectures. yeah....a lot of things for me to do.
Taekwondo training had been going ok. A lot of muscle tearing...I guess..haha
I had so many things in my head these days: school, work, friends, future...you know what I am thinking.
I need to work harder....there are always things for me to do. Keep it up!
Taekwondo training had been going ok. A lot of muscle tearing...I guess..haha
I had so many things in my head these days: school, work, friends, future...you know what I am thinking.
I need to work harder....there are always things for me to do. Keep it up!
September 9, 2008
Next stage of life
The weather is getting much cooler....
I can no longer wear my skirts outdoor...
I start to miss Summer...or more like the events happened during the season.
I feel like I am entering the next stage of my life. I can no longer just focus on studies, and nothing else. I also have to think my future, such as where I will be, and whom I will be with.
I need to finish writing a resume and cover letter this afternoon. Hopefully, I can get a job soon.
And these days, I start to like kids a lot more. Isn't that nice if I have my own child? =)
And oh yes...happy mid-autumn festival! =)
I can no longer wear my skirts outdoor...
I start to miss Summer...or more like the events happened during the season.
I feel like I am entering the next stage of my life. I can no longer just focus on studies, and nothing else. I also have to think my future, such as where I will be, and whom I will be with.
I need to finish writing a resume and cover letter this afternoon. Hopefully, I can get a job soon.
And these days, I start to like kids a lot more. Isn't that nice if I have my own child? =)
And oh yes...happy mid-autumn festival! =)
September 7, 2008
Sore muscle and job hunting
Since the day I volunteered for SFU orientation, I did so many things that kept getting me sore muscles: moving many drums to the convocation mall, moving materials for my boss in Kumon, moving the stacks of books I have to my room, practicing Taekwondo.
It seems like I got sore muscle each time I just recovered....isn't that cool? hahahaha... Maybe it's because I didn't really exercise for so long, and now I keep doing all these exercises...my body doesn't seem to able to get used to it. Anyway, I think my body will get used to it soon.
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As for job hunting, I had started the process officially. There are so many things that I need to do for the next few days...haha
I will do it slowly and steadily. =)
It seems like I got sore muscle each time I just recovered....isn't that cool? hahahaha... Maybe it's because I didn't really exercise for so long, and now I keep doing all these exercises...my body doesn't seem to able to get used to it. Anyway, I think my body will get used to it soon.
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As for job hunting, I had started the process officially. There are so many things that I need to do for the next few days...haha
I will do it slowly and steadily. =)
September 5, 2008
Personality test result
I just took a Jung Typology test from an online site. It involved with 72 questions, and here goes my result:
Your Type is
INFJ
You are:
Umm...seriously, should I really believe it?
I am an idealist Portrait of the Counselor?
The result says this:
Counselors have an exceptionally strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others, and find great personal fulfillment interacting with people, nurturing their personal development, guiding them to realize their human potential. Although they are happy working at jobs (such as writing) that require solitude and close attention, Counselors do quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial, and that they find some quiet, private time every now and then to recharge their batteries. Counselors are both kind and positive in their handling of others; they are great listeners and seem naturally interested in helping people with their personal problems. Not usually visible leaders, Counselors prefer to work intensely with those close to them, especially on a one-to-one basis, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes.
Counselors are scarce, little more than one percent of the population, and can be hard to get to know, since they tend not to share their innermost thoughts or their powerful emotional reactions except with their loved ones. They are highly private people, with an unusually rich, complicated inner life. Friends or colleagues who have known them for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that Counselors are flighty or scattered; they value their integrity a great deal, but they have mysterious, intricately woven personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.
Counselors tend to work effectively in organizations. They value staff harmony and make every effort to help an organization run smoothly and pleasantly. They understand and use human systems creatively, and are good at consulting and cooperating with others. As employees or employers, Counselors are concerned with people's feelings and are able to act as a barometer of the feelings within the organization.
Blessed with vivid imaginations, Counselors are often seen as the most poetical of all the types, and in fact they use a lot of poetic imagery in their everyday language. Their great talent for language-both written and spoken-is usually directed toward communicating with people in a personalized way. Counselors are highly intuitive and can recognize another's emotions or intentions - good or evil - even before that person is aware of them. Counselors themselves can seldom tell how they came to read others' feelings so keenly. This extreme sensitivity to others could very well be the basis of the Counselor's remarkable ability to experience a whole array of psychic phenomena.
And here is another link that talks about it: http://typelogic.com/infj.html
Wiki: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/INFJ
Funny thing is....I got similar results in the past from taking similar personality tests. And it's true that I had done a lot of counseling for people I know...but it doesn't mean this job really suits me right?
Your Type is
INFJ
| Introverted | Intuitive | Feeling | Judging |
| Strength of the preferences % | |||
| 56 | 88 | 38 | 11 |
You are:
- moderately expressed introvert
- very expressed intuitive personality
- moderately expressed feeling personality
- slightly expressed judging personality
Umm...seriously, should I really believe it?
I am an idealist Portrait of the Counselor?
The result says this:
Counselors have an exceptionally strong desire to contribute to the welfare of others, and find great personal fulfillment interacting with people, nurturing their personal development, guiding them to realize their human potential. Although they are happy working at jobs (such as writing) that require solitude and close attention, Counselors do quite well with individuals or groups of people, provided that the personal interactions are not superficial, and that they find some quiet, private time every now and then to recharge their batteries. Counselors are both kind and positive in their handling of others; they are great listeners and seem naturally interested in helping people with their personal problems. Not usually visible leaders, Counselors prefer to work intensely with those close to them, especially on a one-to-one basis, quietly exerting their influence behind the scenes.
Counselors are scarce, little more than one percent of the population, and can be hard to get to know, since they tend not to share their innermost thoughts or their powerful emotional reactions except with their loved ones. They are highly private people, with an unusually rich, complicated inner life. Friends or colleagues who have known them for years may find sides emerging which come as a surprise. Not that Counselors are flighty or scattered; they value their integrity a great deal, but they have mysterious, intricately woven personalities which sometimes puzzle even them.
Counselors tend to work effectively in organizations. They value staff harmony and make every effort to help an organization run smoothly and pleasantly. They understand and use human systems creatively, and are good at consulting and cooperating with others. As employees or employers, Counselors are concerned with people's feelings and are able to act as a barometer of the feelings within the organization.
Blessed with vivid imaginations, Counselors are often seen as the most poetical of all the types, and in fact they use a lot of poetic imagery in their everyday language. Their great talent for language-both written and spoken-is usually directed toward communicating with people in a personalized way. Counselors are highly intuitive and can recognize another's emotions or intentions - good or evil - even before that person is aware of them. Counselors themselves can seldom tell how they came to read others' feelings so keenly. This extreme sensitivity to others could very well be the basis of the Counselor's remarkable ability to experience a whole array of psychic phenomena.
And here is another link that talks about it: http://typelogic.com/infj.html
Wiki: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/INFJ
Funny thing is....I got similar results in the past from taking similar personality tests. And it's true that I had done a lot of counseling for people I know...but it doesn't mean this job really suits me right?
I am so tired
I am soo tired....I don't know why.
My back is hurting me....arggggh
I hate it when it happens.
My back is hurting me....arggggh
I hate it when it happens.
September 4, 2008
Back to school
School started this Tuesday. I don't have any special feelings about school. I guess the main reason is that I never really had a summer break, so it didn't matter to me.
One thing that made this semester so different from the past semesters is that I no longer really study with anyone. I feel so lonely...but then, maybe it's a good thing. At least I can concentrate more on my work, and not on some useless things.
For those of you who read this blog, you may notice that I had started to blog a lot more. This is not intentional, actually. I just blog whenever I have something to say, and I can't say to anyone. This is my "stress/sadness release area". haha
I want to say something happy, but I really have nothing to say. Maybe there is nothing exciting for me to share.
I need to do a lot of company researches soon. =) Maybe I can keep you updated on that one.
And as always, I miss oppa a lot. =O
One thing that made this semester so different from the past semesters is that I no longer really study with anyone. I feel so lonely...but then, maybe it's a good thing. At least I can concentrate more on my work, and not on some useless things.
For those of you who read this blog, you may notice that I had started to blog a lot more. This is not intentional, actually. I just blog whenever I have something to say, and I can't say to anyone. This is my "stress/sadness release area". haha
I want to say something happy, but I really have nothing to say. Maybe there is nothing exciting for me to share.
I need to do a lot of company researches soon. =) Maybe I can keep you updated on that one.
And as always, I miss oppa a lot. =O
September 2, 2008
Right Here Waiting
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Oppa just made me upset again.
Oppa upset me so much today. He ignored me again....
If he is busy....at least he should let me know. Oh well...I am a bit used to that already. When I am not on the computer, he get pissed that I don't reply him right away, but when I am on the computer, and want to talk to him, he never replies me right away. Aaaahh....it drives me nuts. Why should I care so much about him? I don't even know what I am doing....
If he is busy....at least he should let me know. Oh well...I am a bit used to that already. When I am not on the computer, he get pissed that I don't reply him right away, but when I am on the computer, and want to talk to him, he never replies me right away. Aaaahh....it drives me nuts. Why should I care so much about him? I don't even know what I am doing....
September 1, 2008
Martial art
I had enrolled myself to a martial art school this morning. Life is going to be a bit more busy for me. In addition to school, I will be doing my current part-time job, my new volunteering job, martial job. If I still have time, I also want to gain some cooking skills.
I am regaining health these days. I think I will return to my Hangul learning really soon. I shouldn't slack off at this time. =)
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I talked to Oppa for a while tonight. He made me realize that I still miss the things we did together. Too bad I can't do that anymore with him anymore. I miss him a lot..a lot..a lot. I wish I can express how I feel to him.
I am regaining health these days. I think I will return to my Hangul learning really soon. I shouldn't slack off at this time. =)
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I talked to Oppa for a while tonight. He made me realize that I still miss the things we did together. Too bad I can't do that anymore with him anymore. I miss him a lot..a lot..a lot. I wish I can express how I feel to him.
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