New Site

Please visit http://www.annielo.ca/ for the new blog entries!

Change to my site

Hi everyone...

I had been using this blog since early 2006.  In these few years, I kept updating this site in a regular basis.  From time to time, I will change the appearance of the whole site to give readers a more refreshing look.

A few days ago, I decided to make a complete change to my blog.  Instead of using Blogger from Google, I decided to host my blog under my own domain (annielo.ca).  Since I already have my own site, I will merge my blog with my personal site so that everything is in one central location.

I have finally figured out how to export all my entries to my new site, which I will show you a bit later.  I had tried to do the import provided by Wordpress, but it didn't work, so I tried using an online too, but my XML file is much bigger than its limit, which is 1MB, so I downloaded the script and executed it on my computer.  I even downloaded Python so it can run the script.  I also edited the XML file manually so that I can import it to my database.  Ahhhh...such a hassle, but at least I got everything imported.

I will show you later.  After that site is completed, this site will be taken down.  All you have to do is to go to my personal site.  ^^

I don't think I can import my blog entries from Spymac, Xanga, and Space, so I guess I will just keep a link in my new site.

As for my old Joomla! site, I guess I will take it down.  I don't think it really suits me as my main update is my blog entries.  I still have my Joomla! site working, since I merged two databases into one, but I might have to remove it later.

I will keep you updated.

thank you~

請講

是是非非真假
原來相當可怕
如甜夢 全是哄騙話 真相被遺下

話若可分真假
情難修飾欺詐
柔情話 誠實欠了吧 一切是廢話

想想你不會傷
想你不要傷
想你不再受傷
可講的我都會講
講我都會講
請你不要亂猜 受創
如你心安不厭我 我都講

請請你不要拖
請你不要拖
請你請你別拖
可講的也請你講
講到底也講
讓我不再絕望

以真心 將謊言盡擋
我衷心 將一切盡講

夢在心中多好
情毋須怎宣佈
無情話 無謂去製造 真相論程度

願望星般多高
祈求真心傾訴
如無盡 蒙在那片霧 真愛未看到

**If you don't understand Chinese, it's ok. I am just expressing my feeling with a Chinese song. My feeling is almost 100% matching with this song.

Google Summer of Code

I really want to participate to the Google Summer of Code program.  I tried to apply for it last year, but I got rejected because I couldn't commit a lot of my time to programming.  However, I want to apply again this year.  I know it will be a lot of programming for me, but I think it will also be a great experience.

I want to submit a proposal, but before doing  that, I think I better play around with some of the things I am currently interested in, then decide on the organization I want to participate in.  I think it will be more efficient that way.

Hopefully I can participate this year. ^^  I will work hard to find out about the program tomorrow.

Time flies

It's almost 3 months since I left Vancouver.  My lifestyle had changed a lot....
Back then, I ate a lot of junk food, but now, everything I eat is healthy one.
I don't eat a lot anymore, because I want to look prettier.  hehe

I am starting to get used to my life in Waterloo.  I don't find myself too lonely now.  I have my co-workers to talk to; I have my friends online; I have books to read; I have honey to talk with.

Time will fly...I will be happy.

Feeling painful

When hunny said he didn't want to talk to me, I really wished oppa would come to Waterloo to kill me.  My heart was so painful when he said that.

SFU coop

I believe SFU is coming to Waterloo to visit me and other SFU students working at RIM soon.
Am I excited? I don't know....probably not. I don't know those people, as my coordinator is having a baby, so she is on leave right now.
hahaha...I miss SFU....the labs, the professors, my classmates...etc. I like the smiles from my professors; I like the chats with my classmates; I like the joy working together in the labs. Blaaaah....I am done with CS...wooohooo...
Business business business....that's all I should think about right now. ^^
I am almost done....go go go go!!
See??
http://www.annielo.ca/Site/My_Courses.html

Toronto

I finally spent a day in Toronto.  Comparing to Waterloo, I think Toronto is heaven.  I love busier cities, with more people, and more things to buy!!  Downtown Kitchener is nothing if I compare it with Downtown Toronto.  Shopping there is sooo fun!!

I will post some random pictures I took in Facebook later.

And yes...I need to work tomorrow again.  I hope I can fix the technical problem that I had for days...

Mom + hunny

I phoned my mom last night.  It was a horrible talk.  It was ok at first, but my mom started to talk about honey and told me that he does not deserve to be my lover.  Back in Vancouver, I had tried to persuaded her to try accepting him, and believing me, but I know it didn't work out.  Every time we had a conversation, she would bring it up and made our conversation very unpleasant.  At the end, one of us would end the call.

Honey was sick yesterday...well...he is still sick, according to him.  I am worried about him, but when he said he couldn't talk to me anymore, my emotion wasn't very controllable.  I started to say he was leaving me alone again.  I know it wasn't true, but I am still very hurt and painful that I am now alone.

I love him, and I will love him more when he comes back.

Getting a car

I had been talking to my brother for a few days about getting a car. Since he is more knowledgeable than me in cars, I think it's a very good idea to get some suggestions from him.

After thinking about it, I think I will decide if I buy a car or not when I get a permanent job. I want to know where I will live in the long run. If I choose to stay in Ontario, I will to transfer my driving licence to the Ontario one. I might want to warm up my driving again in Vancouver if I can stay there for a while, then take another driving test to upgrade my licence to class 5, then transfer my licence to a G Ontario licence. After all these are done, then I can get a car!! If I cannot stay in Vancouver, then I will transfer my licence to G2 (maybe)n then take a driving test to upgrade my licence to G. Either way, I think it will work. I hope I can get a job soon. That will really help me make my decision.

So sleepy

I am so sleepy...
I couldn't sleep again last night.
Not the same problem as last time...
I don't have much energy to talk now...
I will write more about this later.

Update on 7:43pm:
This time it's about my honey. I missed him so much, and I couldn't wait for him anymore so I sent him a sms. He replied to me with email, and told me that he was just busy. In my mind, I thought he was forgetting me, so I didn't accept that reason. Personally, I will never leave my lover like that, so I couldn't understand his action.

Anyway, because of the sadness I got from last night, I couldn't sleep at all. I kept thinking....what should I do? Should I leave him? I love him so much...and that was the only reason why I didn't want to break up. However, logically, if I knew that he was forgetting me, no matter how much I love him, I should break up.

One thing that touched my heart is that he could finally talk to me this morning. I was so happy, but I couldn't show too much as it was actually my work hour when he phoned me. I love him so much. Hearing his voice strengthens me to continue waiting for him. It gives me the energy and motivation to continue taking care of myself. It might be such a little thing for some people, but to me, it's really the best thing he can give me.

I tried to phone him after work, but he didn't answer my call. Oh well~

Anyway, I will write later. I can write this much right now because I am actually using my laptop. In my other entries, I had been using my BlackBerry. If there are any typos, I am very sorry. I don't usually spend too much time checking my grammar and spelling if I am writing with my phone.

Last night

I couldn't sleep last night.
Not because I wasn't tired, but because of something my friend from Vancouver said to me last night.

In August, I met him. At first, we didn't talk a lot, but we started to use sms to communicate a while later. It's not because I didn't want to talk to him on the phone, but because he found using sms more sweet (don't ask me why). Umm...ok...so we used sms everyday, till one day I told him that I had to go to Waterloo for work. We didn't talk a lot afterwards. He had a new roommate, and from that day, we didn't talk much again. I sent him a sms on the day of my flight to Waterloo. He didn't reply me; I thought he was mad at me, but he told me last night that his grandma passed away, and that's why he was away from Canada.

Ok...that really surprised me.

We didn't talk for a few months. I remember he told me he saw me at Columbia with another man. He was jealous. He insulted me that day...

Aah...so I forgot about him when I arrived Waterloo.

A few days ago, he contacted me again. He told me to return Vancouver, and that he missed me so much. I thought he was joking, so I said, sure. Then yesterday, he proposed to me. He said he would wait for me to Vancouver, and he was going to say he wanted to be my boy when I returned. He shocked me...really...he said he realized I am so important when I am gone.

I am thankful for how he feels, but I don't know how to reject him. I don't want to lose a friend.

Lack of communication

It had been a few days since honey last sent me an email.  I don't know if he is busy or ignoring me, but I don't feel too happy about it.
I tried to make myself happy...by not thinking about it...but that's really all I could do.

Going crazy

I am starting to run out of things to say....
I don't think anyone really cares anyway....
Ha....let's write a function in here instead...I think anyone can understand...

Static void printCrazyStatement() {

       boolean crazy = true;

       while (crazy) {
              System.out.println("I am starting to go crazy....");
       }

}

Have a good day~

Problems

Oppa doesn't want to talk to me anymore. I don't know if that's a good thing. Maybe it is...because I know I cannot listen to him forever. Today, he asked me a very weird question (I am not going to state the question here). I replied him with the answer no. He asked me again...and I repeated the same thing. That's how we broke connection. That's stupid...really... I don't understand why he asked me that question. I am just his...dongseng...didn't he get that?

I went to the bank again after work. The weather was slightly better than yesterday, but it was still around -20 degree cel. I miss Vancouver, where weather is warm and sunny.

I miss honey a lot, but I no longer know how to communicate with him. He seems so far away from me. Will our relationship last? I love him so much. I don't know how he thinks about me.

I need to work harder tomorrow. I have so much to do in such little time. I wonder if I can handle everything.

I need to be strong. Men say that girls are weak, but I cannot. I need to face the challenges, and be the best I can be.

Inspire

I got inspired by a book recently...
It's a psychological book...very very interesting...
It gets me to know how people think...and what's the big difference between men and women.

+++

Sooo cold outside...-30...I went to the bank today after work....I almost got killed because of the wind chill...
I probably need to go again tomorrow....I think my account is messed up.  The bank attempted to charge me even though I don't have to pay anything.

And Wednesday, I need to go back to the new house for the leasing agreement.  Sigh...so want a stable life.  I don't really want to deal with such issues.

I miss him

One week has gone by.
I miss him so much.
However, when I think about him, it makes me happy. We will meet again soon...we will...

Almost one week has gone

It had almost been a week since I talked to honey.  I miss him a lot.  For the last few days, the only way I could contact him was email, which wasn't a lot...  He said he didn't have a lot of access to internet, so I could understand that.

I had been trying to be happy, and stay positive about our relationship.  I had worked hard in the company, cooked more at home, studied at night, read books I bought to keep myself busy.  I don't want a meaningless life while I am living alone in Waterloo, so I hope I can do something when I have a bit of time.

I wonder how he is right now.  I think he is probably in Korea already, chatting with his friends and family members.  Did he forget me already...I wonder...  anyway...I should stop thinking about that.  He will come back eventually...I just have to be more patient.

I cannot believe it's March already.  They sky is so beautiful today, even though it's still very cold when I step out from my apartment.  I went out to buy some food....man...that was soo heavy.  I carried 30lbs of stuff back home....lucky I had a bag with me that I normally don't use.  I am strong...I can do it. ^^